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Who am I? What am I doing here? Am I real or a figment of somebody's imagination? Do I really exist? Whats my purpose here on Earth? Why do I get these weird feelings that I am not real? I feel like I am one of the characters I see in movies....unreal, cooked up by some industrious writers, who twist and mix the whole plot to make the story interesting....leaving the character bruised and battered and left to rise up from the ashes like a phoenix reborn. In the real world where one feels like a movie character, its bruised and battered and scarred for life, is there really a chance to rise up from the ashes, reborn? Or rather, are we just by products of an education system that dictates one's thought processes? Empty programmed zombies. A programmed hard drive that works with a click of a button. Void of any abilities for rational thought. Unable to love, think, process. Just an empty programmed shell. One's always told that a whole being is in tune with the mindbodyspiritsoul. But when the mind isn't free, whats the point of talking about being in tune? Effectively, one whose mind isn't free are all empty shells. Husks. Skin. Empty. EMPTY.

“I will persist until I succeed”

“I will persist until I succeed”
by Og Mandino

This thing is super cool, it's like those forwarded emails you get with one exception.  It's worth your time to read it.  Bookmark this, print it out, or email it to yourself, because this had a very positive impact on my life and made me more of an optimist in life, and I even changed one of my theories because of it.  It can have a positive impact on you too, but it really helps to read it often.  It was taken from the book "The Greatest Salesman in the world", and in it, he is a salesman, trying hard to sell things (in case you are wondering about the references to sales).  Still, you can apply the princples of it to everyday life. 

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I will persist until I succeed.

In the Orient young bulls are tested for the fight arena in a certain manner. Each is brought to the ring and allowed to attack a picador who pricks them with a lance. The bravery of each bull is then rated with care according to the number of times he demonstrates his willingness to charge in spite of the sting of the blade. Henceforth will I recognize that each day I am tested by life in like manner. If I persist, if I continue to try, if I continue to charge forward, I will succeed.

I will persist until I succeed.

I was not delivered unto this world in defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. I am not a sheep waiting to be prodded by my shepherd. I am a lion and I refuse to talk, to walk, to sleep with the sheep. I will hear not those who weep and complain, for their disease is contagious. Let them join the sheep. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny.

I will persist until I succeed.

The prizes of life are at the end of each journey, not near the beginning; and it is not given to me to know how many steps are necessary in order to reach my goal. Failure I may still encounter at the thousandth step, yet success hides behind the next bend in the road. Never will I know how close it lies unless I turn the corner.

Always will I take another step. If that is of no avail I will take another, and yet another. In truth, one step at a time is not too difficult.

I will persist until I succeed.

Henceforth, I will consider each day's effort as but one blow of my blade against a mighty oak. The first blow may cause not a tremor in the wood, nor the second, nor the third. Each blow, of itself, may be trifling and seem of no consequence. Yet from childish swipes the oak will eventually tumble. So it will be with my efforts of today.

I will be liken to the rain drop which washes away the mountain; the ant who devours a tiger; the star which brightens the earth; the slave who builds a pyramid. I will build my castle one brick at a time for I know that small attempts, repeated, will complete any undertaking.

I will persist until I succeed.

I will never consider defeat and I will remove from my vocabulary such words and phrases as quit, cannot, unable, impossible, out of the question, improbable, failure, unworkable, hopeless and retreat; for they are the words of fools. I will avoid despair but if this disease of the mind should infect me then I will work on in despair. I will toil and I will endure. I will ignore the obstacles at my feet and keep mine eyes on the goals above my head, for I know that where dry desert ends, green grass grows.

I will persist until I succeed.

I will remember the ancient law of averages and I will bend it to my good. I will persist with knowledge that each failure to sell will increase my chance for success at the next attempt. Each nay I hear will bring me closer to the sound of yea. Each frown I meet only prepares me for the smile to come. Each misfortune I encounter will carry in it the seed of tomorrow's good luck. I must have the night to appreciate the day. I must fail often to succeed only once.

I will persist until I succeed.

I will try, and try, and try again. Each obstacle I will consider as a mere detour to my goal and a challenge to my profession. I will persist and develop my skills as the mariner develops his, by learning to ride out the wrath of each storm.

I will persist until I succeed.

Henceforth, I will learn and apply another secret of those who excel in my work. When each day is ended, not regarding whether it has been a success or failure, I will attempt to achieve one more sale. When my thoughts beckon my tired body homeward I will resist the temptation to depart. I will try again. I will make one more attempt to close with victory, and if that fails I will make another. Never will I allow any day to end in failure. Thus will I plant the seed of tomorrow's success and gain an insurmountable advantage over those who cease their labor at a prescribed time. When others cease their struggle, then mine will begin, and my harvest will be full.

I will persist until I succeed.

Nor will I allow yesterday's success to lull me into today's complacency, for this is the great foundation of failure. I will forget the happenings of the day that is gone, whether they were good or bad, and greet the new sun with confidence that this will be the best day of my life.

So long as there is breath in me, that long will I persist. For now I know one of the greatest principles of success; if I persist long enough I will win.

I will persist.

I will win.
  

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Taken from: http://www.ninomiya.org/otherstuff/i.html

I don't have to add anymore, the article speaks for itself  =)

Youth Nation Summit: Day 2

Day 2 was a bit boring....We had 2 forums, one in the morning with a few corporate people, and one in the afternoon after lunch with some government people. The first forum was Youth2Business, where reps from myEG, IBM, NAZA and BSN came to talk about CSR (Corporate Social Responsibility) and all the types of programs they fund and support through their respective companies they represent. Then we had lunch, then continued to the second forum, Youth2Government, where representatives from ASTRO, the Ministry of Human Resources and 2 more people....whom I forgot where they were from =P It was basically speeches from all of them, then Q&A sessions between delegates and the representatives. The deputy HR minister herself was present to answer the queries posed by the delegates. Then we had tea break. After that, it was time for some final project pitching; I actually chickened out till the last minute. To my surprise, the Junior Youth Empowerment Program was quite well accepted by many people. I met Dandy Ling Kwong, fellow Bahai from Sarawak and working in Penang. I was glad I met him; had some moral support. =) So after dinner, I elaborated  on my project and got a pretty good response. Nominations were cast and the results will be known on Day 3. Well, I did what I came here to do and the rest is up to the nominations. =) 

Hmmm......

I just realized; I'm blogging again!!!! The past is WELL AND OVER PAST ME!!!! Yay!!!! Let the POWER OF THE WRITTEN WORD RULE AGAIN!!!! YEAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Youth Nation Summit: Day 1

1st day yesterday; had fun, learnt a lot. Jointly organised by AIESEC and myHarapan, the theme of the summit; The Power of Y (Gen Y, or us, of course) is directly related to what I have learnt all my life; YOUTH CAN MOVE THE WORLD! Firstly we had the Sustainability Expo, where we were divided into groups of 4 to 6 people and we went around to a few booths where we listened to talks and did activities to understand social, economic and environmental issues better. Then, we had a working lunch, where we had to come up with an idea connected to the issues we learnt about earlier. My teammate came up with the idea of "mini hydro turbines", where little turbines are attached to taps and generate electricity when the taps are turned on. This can be implemented in homes, restaurants, and basically every industry that uses flowing water to function.

Later, there were talks on Environmental Sustainability, Social Sustainability, and Economic Sustainability. I attended the Environmental Sustainability talk, in which 2 speakers spoke; Steve McCoy and, guess who??!!! DATO DR DIONYSIUS SHARMA, CEO OF WWF MALAYSIA!!! I had the chance to hang back after the talk and speak to him, and I found out that, much to my excitement, he did his BSc in Ecology IN UM!!! I had a chance to tell him about my ambition and my wish to volunteer with WWF, and he told me to drop him an email so he can add me to the list of volunteers. Damn, I was really hyped to be able to meet him. 

Later, we had talks on self discovery and goal setting by Steve McCoy and Leadership Activation by 2 speakers; Roshan Thiran and Dr. Goh Chee Leong.After that, we had a few skills workshops, and I attended the Strategic Thinking and Project Management workshops. I had a good time and learnt a very interesting thing at the Strategic Thinking skill workshop; AB+ 2 Drivers + 1 Basis = Strategic Thinking (I will be blogging about this later on). This talk was conducted by Chris Tan, who is the founder of Chur Associates (a legal firm) and the author of the book "Turning Green". The Project Management workshop was conducted by Mdm. Lilyana, and she conducts events for Khazanah Global Enterprise. She spoke on how to manage an event or a project and I learnt a lot during that talk too.

Finally, we had dinner, then I went home and totally knocked out....Will be blogging about the second day (today) later.

I WILL WIN!!!

Someone just told me the seniors bullied me cos I wasn't nice to them. WHEN WASN'T I NICE TO THOSE HOES? It was because I was too nice they decided to take advantage of me, like all typical bitches do. I listened to everything they said, did everything they told me to do.....What am I supposed to do, get down to my knees and suck their c**t or something? I have my rights to stand up to those who make me go against my standards. I WILL NOT bully my juniors just because MY seniors were idiots. I WILL NOT make up my own rules that go against university laws just because of the so-called "Indian orientation". I will not create a profile on a sex website because I didn't like them or if they didn't like or respect me. I will not DEMAND respect just because I am a senior. If only that person who said that I was bullied cos I wasn't nice to them could experience what we did. How am I supposed to be nice to a bunch of bitches who made a GUY CRY for no reason? I was nice enough, I maintained my distance. I was as nice as my upbringing would allow those hoes. Thats all I could do. This isn't the first time people put me in the villain's position just because I fought back and stood up to injustice. I am strong. I will continue to be strong. People who only know how to judge without knowing the true situation will NOT I repeat will NOT bring me down. All you're doing is mobilizing me to fight ragging even more. So I guess I should thank you, even though you didn't mean to, you did help me =) With those who fight in the name of justice and the good name of the community I WILL WIN, so God help me!

Food poisoning, asthma attacks, fractured foot, fainting fits.....

......AND I SURVIVED!!! HAR-DE-HAR to you,

  

UM 4th college SLUTS!!! You thought you were gonna break me and change me, despite my parents' careful upbringing eh? Well, hoes, thats not gonna happen as I am strong minded, and you're gonna so get your ass kicked when the juniors of next sem come in. I am gonna tell them all the

TRUTH and you can go hide your face in shame then. Its nothing personal, just my 

RESPONSIBILITY as a 

SENIOR to 

LOOK OUT for my juniors =) So yeah, watch out next sem, bitches.... I warned you not to 

mess with me.....now that you did, bear the consequences of your fucking stupidity and stubbornness. There is 

ABSOLUTELY NO WAY I am gonna let anyone else go through the shit I

had to go through with you cracked pots. Watch out. You didn't kill me. You brought the worst out of me against you. Be prepared. Be scared. Be very, very scared...